It has been awhile since I have had the time or energy to write for the blog. There is no space for excuses. It was great to be able to write during Lent. It was a challenge for me – and I did achieve my goal. Since then the focus has had to be on my pastoral call, which is as the Campus Pastor at Carthage College and to my to the call of being a partner to Trenton at the Baylor homestead. This means focusing on health and healing as we all face stage 4 breast cancer together. (If you want to follow that journey you can find me on Caring Bridge).
Because of everything going on with my health, I have thought about shutting down #PissedOffPastor. There is no way I can keep up with the pace I started. The good news – I don’t have to keep up that pace. There is no way I can grow the blog, right now, with speaking engagements and other resources I had hoped to write. The good news – I don’t have to do any of those things and I can actually say no to things after I had said yes. There is no way I can keep up with selling T-Shirts and other merch (there are a lot of great ideas out there for good merch). The good news – there is no need for more merch in the world.
What the world need more of is for is more honest conversation about race, racism and faith. There are a lot people talking in this space and I hope to continue to be one of them. It may be four times a year, depending on the time and energy I have left after focusing on the first two calls. If there is both energy and time – this third call will get some.
So the question some of you may have and a question I asked myself – “Are you still pissed off?” The answer is – You Bet I am.
There is still so much to be pissed off about when it comes to race and racism in the world. There are more names, that have had to be added to the list of unarmed black men and women who have been killed by police. Within days around the verdict in the trial of George Floyd’s killer, Daunte Wright, was killed in a suburb of the Twin Cities, a young girl in OH was killed, and other nonsense happened too. There wasn’t time to be in awe of, or amazed by the fact that George Floyd’s death could actually be changing the way a black man will be treating in the world in the next 20-30 years. Nope. What we saw instead was how ingrained racism/anti-blackness is in our society that we continue to refuse to come up with other ways of dealing with stressful and traumatic situation. For black people, death must be the answer, as their lives are still not as valuable as their white counterparts.
So yes – I’m still pissed. The pain of racism seems to continue to be too much for many whites to face and denial is less painful than honest acceptance that could help us all heal. And yes – I’m still a pastor, which is hard when you can’t seem to help people know that they faith sets them free to not live within the walls of denial. It is hard to see that Christians don’t know that they are the ones who are called on to change. Yep – still pissed about the clear facts of racism all around us and the clear denial of the Christian church to take up the cross to follow Jesus, who sets us free.